Nathan and I slept in until 10:30 Saturday morning. I loved it and felt guilty about it at the same time. It seemed just a little too self-indulgent.
The weekend was peaceful and I guess that was part of the problem. Apart from the constant pop of neighborhood fireworks, the house was very quiet. Scary quiet. Many times I peeked into Autumn’s room (which was a good thing because the fish! he needs food!), looked at her empty bed and felt a little sad that she wasn’t with us.
The Saturday night sushi dinner at home wound up being hot dogs on the grill because we were just too lazy to julienne the veggies by hand. We added some low-salt Lay’s chips to the mix and ended the evening with Moose Tracks ice cream and a few episodes of “Dr. Who.”
Yes, it was fun, but in the middle of it all I couldn’t help but feel empty. I also couldn’t help but think how that weekend could very well have been every weekend had we never had a child. And if we’d never had a child we’d be totally okay with spending so much time doing nothing at all.
We picked Autumn up yesterday afternoon. She slept all the way home, no doubt exhausted from spending three whole days with her cousins. It didn’t take long for the three of us to pick up where we left off and it took Autumn less than an hour to get into some big trouble.
But that was probably my fault since I was the one who left the nail polish out in the first place.
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Ooooh nail polish. Ouch.
Thankfully it was CLEAR nail polish.
Wonderful article, thank you very much.
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